I can't believe it has been so long since I've blogged! I promise I didn't forget about you guys, I've just been so darn busy. I feel like a million things have happened in my life this past month and a half; and it would take me forever to tell you all about it. So I'll give you the short of it. God is awesome. Yeah, I'd say that pretty much sums it up. This point in my life is so incredibly insane. I feel like I'm in a hurricane of emotions and experiences. I find myself falling to my knees constantly in desperation for His love and comfort. I feel like I'm actually experiencing life for the first time. It's scary and magnificently exciting all at the same time!
For those of you who don't know, my best friend/roomie/soul sister (yeah I know it's lame, but it's oh-so-true) and I are planning a huge move to Charlotte later this year. I say "huge" because although we live out on our own now, this move is really going to push us into independence!
Yesterday, she and I visited Charlotte to look at potential apartments. The night before, I decided to lay it all on the line, and I asked God to make it painfully clear to us if moving to Charlotte was
not the plan He had in mind for us; and likewise, to make it evident if it was. Well wouldn't you know it, when we got to Charlotte yesterday, it was a gorgeous 70 and sunny day (Not at all typical of recent weather patterns), we found the most
perfect apartment (in our price range!), and were able to visit
CharlotteONE that evening where we met some awesome new friends!
On the ride home, we were both so in awe at how clear He made it that this is the path we are supposed to be on. I couldn't be more excited! I'll post more as we visit more often and make more plans; but for now, I just wanted to let you guys in on the excitement, and explain my absence :\
Here's what I've learned through this chaotic past month:
1)
God is faithful. "Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep His promise."
Hebrews 10:23
God is incredibly understanding. He understands that times get tough. He understands that sometimes we lose our faith. He understands that sometimes we don't like not knowing what is coming our way. But He also understands that HE knows what is coming our way, and HE will prepare us. Even when we don't realize we're being prepared or what we're being prepared for.
Being in Charlotte yesterday, I felt like God was telling me that amazing things are waiting for us in the city. Opportunities are presenting themselves, and I'm beginning to really see God's faithfulness in all of this.
2)
God is peace. "Be still, and know that I am God..."
Psalms 46:10
Psalms 46:10 is probably my favorite Bible verse. I say this because I am a big ball of nerves. I stress about everything. Even the things that don't need to be worried about. But with eight little words, God calms my heart. My worries vanish, and my stress melts away.
I've been stressing about this move, and wondering "how in the world are we going to afford this?" Deposits, new jobs, higher cost of living etc....It's has just all been too much! So that's when I just have to stop being so self-reliant, and humbly hand it over to God. He has my back :)
3)
God will provide. "Look at the birds. They don't plant or harvest, or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't you far more valuable to them than they are?...So don't be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows."
Matthew 6:26, 10:31
I can't tell you how many times I've been afraid that I was going to be unable to pay one or five of my bills. I stress and stress, and run through possible fix-it scenarios in my head to no avail. I just can't do it on my own. Lucky for me, God is more than able and willing to take on my nasty problems and polish them up until they are shiny new solutions! Like I said before, I have thought about this move to Charlotte and wondered how on God's green earth I'm going to be able to save up enough money to actually go through with it. Then God shakes some sense into me and reminds me that I'm not dependent on myself, but on Him. He can and will provide. And has He ever!
4)
God is my daddy. (and my protector!) "For you are all Children of God through faith in Christ Jesus."
Galations 3:26; "In peace I will lie down and sleep. For you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe."
Psalms 4:8
I often let myself get so caught up in the magnificence of God, that I forget He is my personal spiritual Father; And like any earthly father, He is protective. He wants us to do well and be eternally happy in Him. He doesn't want us to be or feel constantly attacked by the enemy.
Moving to a big city is going to be scary. It's a far cry from "Small Town Friendly." You have to be more cautious and aware than you typically would in a small southern town. But I've decided that if this is where God wants me to be, then I am going to trust Him to keep me safe; and if something were to happen to me, I would know that I would be suffering for the glory of God; and that would help calm my restless heart.
So, it's safe to say that I'm super excited and giddy with anticipation for the big move to the Queen...no, let's call it the KING city
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